“Search me, O God, and know my heart: test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that OFFENDS You, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.” -PSALM 139: 23-24 NLT
My Pastor always says, when we read the Book of Psalms, we must always remember we are reading what we would call today, somebody’s diary. So, every time I read the Psalms of David, I am always conscious of the fact that I am reading David’s most intimate thoughts and I find myself trying to imagine, where he was when he wrote these words and how he was feeling. I am so thankful to God that today; I am able to get a glimpse into the thought process of someone I admire so much. He (David) is able to mentor me through the pages of the Bible and for this I am extremely grateful to God. God called David “A man after His Own Heart” and here I am reading his innermost thoughts.
One of the things that endeared me to King David was his relationship with God. David loved God and all he wanted, was to be in right standing with Him. He was always ready to take his punishment whenever he sinned and made no excuses for them. He never thought God was too harsh on him, never thought God was too late and never complained when it seemed there was a delay to his prayers. He trusted God fully and waited patiently for God to move on his behalf during his trying periods (and he had many of them).
After his “major” stumble, he was always checking himself, asking God to search him and show him where he might be falling short. He never took sin for granted after that incident. David never tried to do God’s work for him and always kept God in the loop before he took any decision. There is just so much to learn from him and I find something new every time I read one of his Psalms.
I looked at Psalm 139 again, it is one Psalm I refer to very often. It is just such a beautiful Psalm, very encouraging and very humbling. Every time I read it, I am overwhelmed by God’s love for me and I find myself drawn to repentance for not loving Him enough, trusting Him enough and serving Him enough. When I get to the last verse, verse 24 which says “Point out anything in me that offends You’, I pause and ask God to help me recognise where there is a gap between appearance and reality in my walk with Him.
There are some things in me that I may not even realise offends God and because I know He searches my heart, I am convinced every time I pray this prayer, He sees that this prayer always comes from the depth of my heart. It is a prayer I wish we all remembered to pray daily, we can pray in spirit and in truth. Brethren you know what, God always answers. He begins to highlight the little foxes we ignore that He finds offensive. Every time I pray this prayer, He always shows me things in my character I have to work on, and like David, I do not make excuses anymore, I just work on them by the help of the Holy Spirit.
Today, ask God to point out those things in you He detests, things you have gotten used to and you think have no consequences. It is always a very humbling and difficult exercise. Most of the time we won’t like what He highlights but we just have to correct them. We have to ask Him to help us because it is never something we can correct ourselves. The flesh is very strong and dying to the flesh can only be achieved by the help of the Holy Spirit.
Do not be deceived into thinking you can do it yourself, I promise you it is not that simple. Things as minor as telling “white lies” (lies we think are not harmful to anyone….but do not forget a lie is an untruth and any untruth is not of God, so white lies are babies of the devil) will keep you stumbling again and again if you do not get the Holy Spirit involved, so you can imagine other things like envy, jealousy. Nothing of the flesh should be taken lightly; to destroy it completely you need the help of the Holy Spirit.
May God help all of us seek to please Him in all we do in the mighty name of Jesus (Amen).
– Pastor Tinu Olashore